Chaos

Most every Saturday I start my day before everyone wakes up. I open my Bible and begin to read scripture and pray that I live the words that I’m reading that day. I did wake up today before everyone else, but it started out of order.  I began the day by reading an advertisement for home goods for sale. All the goods were very beautiful, and I found a bed spread that I just love. I hope to one day buy it for my house. I did then read scripture and pray, but continued to think about the bedspread and how beautiful it would be in my home.  It seems my heart wasn’t into the scripture today.


Well that was the beginning of a chaotic day for me. I was angry with everything and everyone that I encountered today.  I didn’t like how long things were taking the grocery store.  I didn’t like how my schedule was unknown.  I didn’t like how my pants fit.  I didn’t like that I almost burned the onions in the pan.  The list goes on and on.

Have you ever had a day that consumes you in a negative way? Well this was one of those for me. I couldn’t think of anyone or anything except what I wanted.   I was completely out of sorts with no feeling of peace today.  The laundry pile was higher than usual.  The waiting was too long for everything.  The store I wanted to go to today wasn’t open.  Even the Coke ICEE that I wanted wasn’t to be found today.

What is wrong with me?  I don’t know as of yet.  I still need to pray about it to understand it.  The irony was that the Scripture that I read this morning was all about how people don’t see the beauty of things that God created.  How much I was like that today.  I couldn’t see the beauty in my life.  I couldn’t see the beauty of the tasks I wanted to accomplish.  Wow, I just realized that I completely lived a day that was the opposite of how I could have lived it.  What a waste.  Did I forget to ask God that I live the scripture today?  Maybe so. Actually, apparently so.

We must always ask for what it is that we need, and if it is in accordance with God’s will we will receive it in an obvious, or sometimes in a not so obvious, way.  Forgive me Lord for not asking for Your will today in my life.

Chaos – It seems I created it.

Peace,  Eileen