My Angel

I have so many decisions to make in life and sometimes the decision itself seems to take on a life of its own.  It seems to dominate the day rather than letting the life I have dominate the day.  I seem to think that I have to do it all alone.  That I am alone.  I know that not to be true in my intellect, but sometimes my heart doesn't believe the truth that exists.  I know that I have a husband, children, mother and other family that are there for me in my life.  However, I keep thinking of the times when I am struggling on the interior and don't share the struggle with the world.

Who is there for me in those moments to make sure I'm not alone?  Today, I am overwhelmed with the answer.  The obvious answer is God, and I know that He is always there, but today I seem to most certainly feel the prescense of my guardian angel.  How often do I think of my guardian angel?  Not very often it seems, but when I do I feel so protected and at peace.  Why don't I reflect on this more often?  It seems that I should. 

I long ago named my guardian angel, but have forgotten the name as I seem to keep this part of my existance tucked away in my mind.  I think I will again name my guardian angel.  His name shall be Peter.  I think of this name, because I think of Peter as a rock, as the foundation of the church.  I know that each of us has a piece of the church inside and needs the strength of Peter to keep moving in the right direction.  The path to holiness is through accepting the rocks in my life and in allowing the rock of my heart to be molded and chipped into the perfection of myself that God wants for me.

God so lovingly created an angel just to watch over me.  I will begin to pray for my angel in thanksgiving for all the quiet service provided during the years of my life.  I pray that my decision to open my heart again to the guardian angel in my life takes on a life of its own.  I pray that the love of my guardian angel dominates my thoughts today so that I never forget to thank God for my guardian angel and live my life knowing that God is there for me in ways that I don't even know or remember.  I pray the stone of my life is open to His call and His love.

Thank you God for another birthday and another day to be in communion with you and my guardian angel.

Peace and talk to you again soon,

Eileen