What is a number? What does it mean? Does it matter that I have numbers in my life or can I live without numbers? Does it matter that I have a dozen eggs, or 5 minutes of peace, or $10, or that I work 8 (or maybe 10) hours per day? Sometimes I think that numbers seem to determine the choices I make.
I make decisions about when I need to buy gasoline when I have less than 5 gallons. That seems like a good choice. I wouldn’t want to run out when I’m running errands or driving to work. I always fill up, because I don’t want to have to fill up again before I absolutely have to. Do I really need a full tank? Can I live with less than 5 gallons of gas in my tank? Probably!
So many people in the world live without any gasoline at all. Maybe I should just slow down and stay home today and not worry about filling my tank again today. Maybe God wants me to stop and spend some time with Him and refill my spiritual tank rather than filling my car tank.
Maybe the number zero is what I am supposed to focus on instead of 5, 10, 12 or 50. Maybe I need to empty myself of the numbers in my life and spend that time filling my mind and my heart instead of my bank account or my gas tank.
Shouldn’t I be counting the time I had in the day to say hello to my neighbor instead of counting the minutes I’m spending on the freeway on my way to some task I “need” to complete, or how old I am? Maybe I should be reflecting on the time I spend with and caring for my family and the time I spend reading scripture or the time I spend just enjoying a sunrise or an apple. It doesn’t matter what. I just need to remember to enjoy it rather than counting how long it takes to complete it and what time it will be when I’m finished.
Choices are valuable and there are a great number of them to make in life, and pray that I make the right number of choices today and everyday and that these choices bring me closer to bringing light into the world rather than feeling that I need to accomplish so much. If I do that I can accomplish so much more. Probably more things than I can count.
Talk to you again soon,
Eileen
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About Me
- Eileen
- I'm a mother of two. I am a wife of 22 years. I'm happy and confused all in the same day. I'm at peace and in struggle all in the same minute. However, I'm mostly at peace. I am always trying to understand where my life should go next. I know that I have certain gifts that I am supposed to share with the world, but don't always trust that I know what those gifts are that I should share. I can be happy, sad, satisifed, confused, isolated and connected all in the same day or minute. I love my family with all my heart, but struggle at not letting it define me. I know I am at my best as a mother and wife when I feel fulfilled. At that point, I feel the best at being able to lift up those people in my life that need me the most. I love life, but I'm frequently confused about life. I enjoy figuring out what should come next in the minute, in the day, in the week, in the month, in the year and in all eternity. I'm not afraid of change. I hope I'm able to express myself and my commitment to hope in this blog. I know that we all have a story that makes us who we are, and that life is more full if we share that story.
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