Hope

I am so happy and excited about tomorrow and the opportunity to be with God and all of the women on the retreat that I can’t sleep. I know I need to sleep but I just can’t seem to wind down. Isn’t God’s gift of adrenaline a wonderful thing? He always gives me what I need when I need it.


Just now He gave me a break from my typing. It’s a little disturbing because I usually type my blog straight through in a few minutes, but I must have needed to stop and reflect. So now I think, what is it to reflect? I know what life is to me right now, don’t I? I probably don’t. I think I know what I need, but I don’t always get it right. I think right now that I need to pray. I need to thank God for the gift of my life and the gift of my husband, the gift of my children, the gift of my sorrows and the gift of my joys in life. I can never forget that it all comes from Him. All of it! It just matters what I do with it that makes it good or bad.

Why do I sometimes wallow in the things that make me uncomfortable? It doesn’t seem right even when I’m doing it. It seems that I need to move through it rather than stay in it. It mostly seems that I shouldn’t do it at all. My life is so much better when I accept the here and the now instead of dwelling on what’s gone already or what is to come later.

I mostly think I don’t need to be afraid of life, afraid of the things that will come into my life. I know have the sense of the scripture that the first will be last and the last will be first. Isn’t that the best understanding of how to live life and how to have hope? Hope isn’t in the recognition of life but in the acceptance of life.

I need to accept and acknowledge that I need God and that I need the ordinary things of life that are given to me by God. I need a hug, but mostly I need to give a hug. I need to be accepted, but mostly I need to accept others. I need to be listened to, but mostly I need to listen to others. I need to eat ice cream (really!), but mostly I need to thank God for the person that makes the ice cream that I so enjoy and to take it further than that and thank God for the people that bring the ingredients together, and for the people that raise the cows and the chickens that create the ingredients and for the people that decided to bring the ingredients together to create the ice cream, and the people that built the first freezer to change the ingredients to become something each ingredient was not on its own and to thank God for the opportunity to share my thoughts about ice cream and on an on.

Maybe one day I’ll write about something important, but for now I’m so glad to get these words on a page.

God is good all the time. Ice Cream is good all the time. Hope is good all the time.

Peace your sister in Christ and talk to you again soon,

Eileen