Wonder

Why do we wonder?  Why do we care?  What makes us want to know more than we do?

I always wonder about life and about what I am doing right now and what I will do next.  It almost seems to give me purpose.  I don't know what I would do if I didn't wonder.  I am always searching for the meaning in life or really the meaning of the minute. 

Today was about finding people.  I was trying to find people so they can show love and honor to those people that they know in their own lives that mean so much to them.  This made me think of the people that are so near and dear to me. 

Sometimes I forget to tell the people that I love the most that they are so important to us.  I take those people for granted and spend most of my day lifting up people that I don't even really now.  I am not saying that the lifting up those we don't know is a bad thing, but I just don't want to stop trying to lift up those that are closest to me.

What can make me more interested in showing such respect and claiming a desire to build them up?  I think it is about accepting myself and knowing that I am worthy of giving love and honor to those around me including the ones that are closest to me in my life.

I think I always know that there is something in me worthy of love, but sometimes I hide behind the question.  I always wonder if I'm interesting enough, funny enough, intelligent enough, pretty enough to be worthy of giving love and receiving love.

Do I care?  Yes, I care.  Do I wonder?  Yes, I wonder.  Mostly I wonder about you and how your day is going and how it is that our lives connect to make it better for both you and me so that we can meet our full potential in this life.  I wonder how we can all live our lives to our fullest potentials or how we can live our lives according to God's will.

I wonder if I am truly focused on what is important and not what is supposed to be important.   I wonder if I've done all that I can do to find or recognize the people in my life that bring me closer to God.  Do you wonder the same things?

Let me know.

Talk to you again soon,

Eileen